Welcome to the world!

Our hearts are bursting with joy to introduce you to our son Logan Adam, born Wednesday, May 10th at 8:42 am, weighing in at 4 pounds 11 ounces and measuring 18.5 inches, and our daughter, Kirsten Joy, born at 8:44 am, weighing in at 4 pounds 10 ounces and measuring 17.75″ long. Both kiddos and mom are doing wonderful!! (Kirsten pronounced like  “kir” like”keer”)

The kids graduated to the “grower and feeder” side of the NICU their first day and now simply aim to put on weight and learn how to eat without a line. Prayers for their bottle/breast taking abilities to be strong and consistent would be great! As would prayers that my milk would come in and breastfeeding would prove to be an option. 

There are truly no words to express our joy and gratitude for what this week has held. To experience a moment as holy as this is beyond humbling and immensely overwhelming in the best possible way. Thank you all for being part of our story!!! 

“Not to us, O Lord, not to us, but to your name goes all the glory for your unfailing love and faithfulness.” Ps. 115:1‬ ‭



We are adjusting to our new schedule here at the hospital and can’t wait to share more pics, stories and details soon! Much love friends!

The babies are coming!


Yesterday I posted on Facebook that when I think about Josh becoming a daddy, “I think I may actually just burst”, and apparently I meant literally! 😂 My water for baby boy broke around 4:15 pm last evening, which means it’s go time! We checked in to the hospital and are so thankful for our amazing team of doctor and nurses assisting the babies who are leading the way. 
Here’s the plan: KEEP BABIES IN UNTIL WEDNESDAY. Thankfully I am not in labor which makes this plan more realistic (for now.) Since the babies are 34w5d, we are working to beef up their lungs and prevent brain issues by doing 2 rounds of steroids 24 hours apart, along a magnesium drip and antibiotics to prevent infection for baby boy. Both kiddos seem to be doing great despite the circumstances and so we take it hour by hour and pray that God allows these medications to take full effect over the next couples days.

Although we were praying and hopeful they wouldn’t need NICU time, we know this won’t be an option for now, so we are transitioning our thinking and expectations, knowing full well God has known their birthdays and birthing stories from the beginning.

Would you join us in praying for us (again?). We are sooooo beyond excited and filled with peace and pray our son and daughter arrive safely, healthily, and perfectly in the coming days. And also, for me, as there are many risk factors playing into things, that delivery, whatever it looks like, be safe and preferably non-emergent?

Our phones aren’t top priority right now so please don’t be offended if we don’t get back to a call or text … we will do our best to keep you all posted! Thank you thank you thank you! 

International Bereaved Mother’s Day.

Today is International Bereaved Mother’s Day and I can’t help but share this beautiful video from CarlyMarie that helps to shine a light on what it is like to experience and survive the unimaginable death of a baby or child of any age (including adult children) or gestation.

“Mother’s Day is a day of the year that we come together to celebrate all mothers around the world. It’s a day that is intended to bring joy, recognition, love and appreciation to these incredible women that do so much for humanity. However, if you have experienced the death of one or more of your children, struggle to conceive a child or are unable to fall pregnant at all, this day can often bring up feelings of isolation, unworthiness, pain and sadness. Much of society has forgotten the true meaning of Mother’s Day and fails to support and recognize all true mothers.

International Bereaved Mother’s Day is intended to be a temporary movement. It is a heart centered attempt at healing the official Mother’s Day for all mothers. I believe that we can do this and that sometime in the near future there will be no need for this day at all because all true mothers will be recognized, loved, supported and celebrated. This year’s Mother Hearts Project is set to open peoples eyes as to what it is like to live as a bereaved mother.

Sunday May 7th 2017, get together with your closest friends and family and celebrate your beautiful Mother Heart. Celebrate your babies and children. Lets speak about the true meaning of Mother’s Day. Let us start some healing conversations.”  -ProjectHeal website

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If you are looking for tips on ways to help a bereaved mother today, here is a great page that has tips on it.
To anyone out there who carries their children in their heart instead of their arms, you are honored today. Sending the BIGGEST hugs. You are not forgotten, you are a mother, you are loved.

34 weeks.

FRIENDS! It’s so hard to believe we have made it to 34+ weeks! Time has just flown by and it feels like I have been pregnant for a day. I don’t know HOW it’s 239 days. They have been the best days of my life, truly, even through some roller coasters. I can’t even express how grateful I am to be HERE. These babies inside my belly have brought so much healing to my heart. It’s amazing how God works and how much more abundantly He answers prayers than we could have asked for. In our wildest dreams, Josh and I never imagined being here with this story laid behind us and before us. God truly walked with us in the hardest seasons of our lives but not without a purpose. In the midst, we wanted out of the pain so bad, but looking back, without the pain we would have lost so many opportunities to grow. Had our journey been cut short, this blog may never have existed and I may not have met SO MANY wonderful women. Had our journey been cut short, In the Wait wouldn’t have been written. Had our journey been cut short, this son and daughter of ours would not have come into existence. Had our journey been cut short, we would have lost precious growth as a married couple and as children of Christ. Had our journey been cut short, He would not have been glorified in the same manner He is now. The pain, sorrow, and devastation have been worth it, if not solely because it’s helped drive others to Him.

So here we are, at 34w1d, pausing to reflect on how good God has been throughout it all. It’s so easy to want to rush out of the seasons of pain, (with good reason!), yet it’s never in vain. Even when it seems pointless and cruel, He uses it. He doesn’t necessarily cause it as much as He allows it, yet He takes it all and molds it into something grand. We are so grateful.

Today I just wanted to check in and share some fun pregnancy updates with you! I wish I had been better at keeping track of this throughout, but I think I was often in such a joyous daze, focusing on intentionally being present each day of pregnancy and as a result, not as faithful at recording it all. And that’s okay because my heart is full.
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How far along? 34 weeks, 1 day! The picture above is from this morning. I feel like I have definitely started to “drop” a bit and round out.

Gender: Boy / Girl

Maternity Clothes?  Yessss …. Okay, so my favorite pants that I basically wear every day are these leggings from Walmart. Jeans aren’t as comfy anymore and my Target ones give me baggy butt, but these leggings … life savers. They have built in support for my back and no weird seam down the middle of my stomach. They go up high, right under my bra, and are well made so you can’t see through them. WINNING! I own 3 pairs and may never ever give them up, even after the babies come, haha!

Stretch Marks? Yep! Mainly around my belly button and every time I see them I think – YAY! BABIES!

Belly button in or out?  Stretching out, still in, but barely. My belly button makes my husband hysterical every time. We constantly touch it (is that weird?) because it feels so funny, like a stretched and worn out balloon.

Sleep: Honestly, I have been so lucky with sleeping so well throughout this pregnancy. It really has just been since week 33 that I have had to start getting up more frequently to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night. Prior to that it was twice a night, now it’s about 4 times, but that seriously feels like nothing. Getting out of bed is a funny-to-watch endeavor and more often than not, I feel like a beetle on its back, but I am getting my rock-sway-grunt down.

Best moment this week: Besides making it to 34 weeks, which was a huge goal for us, it’s been feeling them continue their activity and getting to know their schedules more and more. They are typically awake together and they always make me smile when they get the hiccups or try to do a roll. At about 18” long now, each of them are running out of room to move, so it always looks like an alien is inside me when they try to get fancy with their movements.

Symptoms:  Seriously, I think I have been blessed with the best pregnancy ever. Yes, I was on bedrest for the 1st trimester but that doesn’t even phase me! The only things that really are different when I am pregnant are some issues with my hands. My left hand needs to be in a brace pretty consistently now as my thumb constantly clicks out of place and any wrist pressure is painful (like opening a door isn’t possible without a brace or holding a handled cup is too much pressure). My right hand has carpel tunnel and my fingers are numb 100% of the day and I sleep with long metal-rod brace to keep the numbness from creeping too far up my arm. Both are temporary and non-issues. A little bit of heartburn every now and then. There’s NO WAY I am complaining about these things! I may need to rest a little more often and keep my feet elevated to avoid swelling, but Mama is loving it all!

I do have to laugh though – having 2x the amount of blood in my body has caused some facial swelling – my lips are more plump and my nose has seriously doubled in size! It’s gotta be one of the weirdest things I have experienced but I have been told it will go back down to a normal sized nose after the babies are here. If you see me in person, don’t judge, HA!

Miss Anything?  Steak tartar. But not necessarily missing it, as much as just looking forward to having some when the babes are out.

Cravings?  No real cravings. I do enjoy buffalo wild wings and will never pass up a change for some boneless wings, but Josh hasn’t had to make any weird store dashes for me.

Food aversions? Eggs and pizza sauce still – just pizza sauce with spices though! I recently found a pizza place near by doctors office that makes Neapolitan pizzas with just crushed tomatoes as the sauce and a margherita pizza with anchovies has been my jammmmm. I may have had that and a salad for lunch today. Maybe.

Queasy or sick?  Nope! Never had one ounce of morning sickness and I feel SO incredibly blessed about that!

Any trips to Labor and Delivery? Yep! We made our first trip last Thursday evening to the hospital after Baby Boy was unusually quiet all day. Once hooked up and scanned, it was obvious he was moving away, but had changed positions into one where I couldn’t feel him much. The hospital was amazing and so supportive of our coming in. We hope it’s our last visit there though before it’s actually go-time!

Looking forward to?  Getting through a day! Honestly, babies will be here in 28 days … each night we celebrate getting through one more day. It feels like such a victory!!!

Prayer Requests? Tomorrow is another growth scan appointment for the babies and it’s been a long 4 weeks not knowing if they are growing appropriately. Twice weekly, we have non stress-tests (NST’s) to monitor their heart rates for a period of time to ensure proper ranges are reached and those have all been awesome, and then once a week we have BPP’s where we watch them via ultrasound to make sure they are practicing their breathing, making appropriate movements and such. They have been thriving and passing all those tests with flying colors! So we know they are doing well in there … now we just have to make sure one isn’t staying stagnant in growth, or pulling too far ahead or falling too far behind. These growth measurements will give us a realistic idea on how likely it will be for us to make it to full term and when/if we will need steroids. Our appointment is at 9 am CST tomorrow (Friday 5/5) and we are PRAYING these babies are right where they need to be so they can continue baking away.

Next Goal: We would love to make it to 36 weeks, which is less than 2 weeks away! At our hospital, anything under 36 weeks is automatic NICU time from delivery and while even after 36 weeks, they may need a little help growing or feeding, we would love to get to a point where NICU may not even need to be considered! We’d love your prayers too for this!

So is everything perfect!? If you are reading this today and feel like I have it too good, I promise, there are still issues, it’s just all a matter of perspective! :) Ever since starting to prepare for our frozen embryo transfer, the estrogen injections made my blood pressure high, which is super unlike me. So I have had to be on blood pressure medicine this whole pregnancy to monitor that. I haven’t had issues since being on it, but it still puts me in a high risk category for pre-eclamsia. Also, I have had gestational diabetes since week 16, which just means I have had to monitor my meals carefully, test my sugars 4 times a day, and routinely use nighttime insulin to keep my sugars from going crazy after a sleep-fast. (I’ve been told with two placentas, this is pretty typical, and also, having PCOS and insulin resistance anyways, pretty likely, which is why we tested at 16 weeks opposed to 28.) In certain situations when I know a meal would cause a spike, I can use day time insulin, but that has really only happened a handful of times. Also, my factor V blood clotting disorder causes some bleeding risks and I give myself injections each night to prevent clots. (Actually tonight I move to twice daily heparin injections as we prepare for delivery!). I also tested positive for Group B Strep so need extra antibiotics during delivery … So I promise, things aren’t perfect, but to me, all non-issues … a blessing really to only be dealing with these things because I am pregnant! If you are dealing with any issues like these, know you aren’t alone. ;) Don’t be hard on yourself, they are all out of our control! If anything, I feel like the fact that I have made it to 34 WITH all these high risk factors is just a testament to the power of prayer!

That’s it friends! Thanks for taking the time to pray for us – we truly believe, especially with so many high risk factors of the items above + a multiples pregnancy, that it’s thanks to YOUR prayers that have kept these babies thriving for so long. Thank you Jesus!

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This was our 9:45 on Tueday night! 3 times a year, Target runs a deal where you can buy $100 in diapers/wipes and get a $25 gift card back. When you do multiple transactions and layer cartwheel and coupons, it works out to be a great deal and way to stock up! Our Target was pretty cleaned out, but we used some baby shower gift cards to make a good haul to stock up! (Yes, I know every baby is different. Yes, we can exchange or return them if needed. Yes, I won’t open the boxes until we know how many we will need.)


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Josh got our car seats installed last night! We are officially ready! We still want to run them by the police station for a quick inspection to ensure everything looks good. It was SO fun to drive around with them both in the back today. It made it feel even more real!


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I got my very first Mother’s Day gift from a dear friend Rachel this week – ALL THE FEELS. Seriously pinching myself!!!! How sweet is this?!

maternity pictures.

Warning: This post contains a whole bunch of maternity shoot photos and may be a trigger for those still struggling with infertility. Proceed with caution or skip over entirely. And know I am sending you BIG HUGS.

A few weekends ago, my dear friend Gina Zeidler came over into our home and gifted us with a full morning of maternity photos taken. For Josh and I, it was an unbelievably surreal morning. Gina is simply the best and turned what felt like such foreign territory and made it so much fun. We laughed, we cried, and we celebrated. It was such a beautiful time together. We are so thankful to her talent and generosity to bless us with these precious moments forever captured.

We will spare you from sharing nearly 200 pics, but here are some of our faves from the morning!!

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“Hey Mom, what’s going on with this bump?”

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This sign was the first thing Josh bought for the babies after we found out I was pregnant.

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This book is SO special. And a reminder of where our blessings come from!

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We received these onesies as a gift when we first shared our pregnancy news, as did we these gorgeous blankets made by Josh’s Grandma. These will be forever keepsakes!

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“Now what’s happening again??”

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Baby Twin bump at 28+4

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Our friend Kaylynn got us these perfect onesies! Can’t wait to put the little nuggets in them. :)

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From the beginning our hearts have been filled with so much laughter – disbelief and joy!

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My sister-in-law surprised us with these onesies – TOO CUTE! Womb Mates for SURE!

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My precious family of 5.

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Cali kisses for the babies!

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Hi Babies! Mommy loves you!

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Josh recently built our family this kitchen table and we love that it will now become the gathering place for so many memories, laughs, tears, devotions and meals.

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Every morning we get up and walk into the nursery and say “Good Morning” to Cali’s baby brother and sister. She’s going to be such a good big sister. :)

These photos are so US. We love that they were captured in our home, in regular clothes, with bare feet and coffee, water, and Cali close at hand. We are so incredibly blessed and don’t take a single minute for granted. <3


“Let the Adventure Begin” sign custom designed and made with love by our friend Ashley from Graced and Co.
Maternity Dress from Shop Pink Blush.