I don’t tend to blog “rushed”, but I need some prayer warriors out there today!
Before I talk about “me”, I am going to ask you to pause a moment a pray for friends of mine, Mommy A and Daddy P who lost their little girl Molly yesterday born at 24 weeks, after a tough 30 hour fight. There really are no words to say to make the pain go away so I just ask that all my readers out there, lift up a prayer for them today, praying that God brings their family comfort in a way only He can.
I have to say, following that up with prayers for myself seems difficult and selfish. I am comforted by the fact that we know that God hears all of our prayers and each is important to Him. “This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.” (1 John 5:14-15)
My appointment on Wednesday went well – it was a difficult morning based on the fact that I realized I had been administering the wrong dosage of medication to myself, much less than what I was supposed to be. I walked into the appointment with the reality and fear that the cycle could be canceled. Instead, God chose to surprise us with better than anticipated results, showing 14 follicles, 2 already mature, and many more growing. We know that not each follicle carries an egg, or even one that has potential to be created into an embryo, but the volumes and my body’s response was great. In fact, my body responded so well, that had I not made the med error for 4 days straight, I likely would have overstimulated and ended up in the hospital. How’s that for God answering prayers??
My labs turned out great as well. I have an appointment this morning at 10:15 and my excitement from Wednesday has turned into fear. Fear that I might have too big of follicles and they might cancel the cycle. Fear that something happened between then and now that results in bad news. Fear that perhaps, although rare, I already ovulated and it’s all too late. It’s been a fearful morning for me, and I am not used to be so anxious about things. So I know it’s the enemy trying to attack my head and heart and for this, I recruit prayers from you. Please pray that 1) my body is exactly where they need it and want it to be, 2) that the doctor and nursing team have a clear direction on what the next steps will be for me and 3) that my mind would be at peace knowing that whatever happens, it’s in God’s hands.
I will update you all more later…Thank YOU!
(Hey, an 8 minute blog … not bad! I apologize for an grammatical or spelling errors!)