yay!

Who’s ready for some good news???

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Yeah, I couldn’t pick just one. That’s how ready for good news I am.

I digress.

So, my appointment today. As you may remember, our news on Monday was a little disappointing. I went into today’s appointment completely prepared for our cycle to be cancelled and for more time to pass before getting a chance to try again.

I was pleasantly surprised.

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My lining made an impressive leap over the past few days and for that I was grateful. I have never struggled with thin lining before yet going from a 4 to an 8 in only a few days made me thrilled (triple-lined nonetheless!). We then checked one ovary, the one that had measuring follicles last time – nada. She tried to find a follicle, she really did and came up completely empty handed. Ouch. I wasn’t surprised. Let’s just get this news over with.

Then the other ovary …. What are those!!? Follicles! Nice big juicy (ew) follicles. I think both the ultrasound tech and I were shocked to see them. She was so excited, clicking away and measuring them, announcing that we have 4 follicles between a 15-18 today. YAY! Clearly their growth and development was a result of answered prayers. YAY GOD! Yay prayers! Yay follicles!

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I got some blood work done and began the wait for the call … and hopefully a plan!

Driving away from my appointment, I was in total shock. I walked in expecting the cycle to get cancelled and quickly realized that I don’t know how to process good news very well. My heart was still guarded, anticipating the lab results to change everything. I told a friend the other day if I didn’t set my expectations so high then I didn’t have as far to fall. (Isn’t that sad? I know, ye of little faith.) The words from a Jesus Calling post earlier this month echoed in my mind: “I am taking care of you. Every detail of your life in under My control. If you could only see how close I am to you and how constantly I work on your behalf, you would never again doubt that I am wonderfully caring for you. This is why you must life by faith and not by sight; trusting in My mysterious, majestic Presence.”

If we could only see how close He is to us.

I have been reminded this week that is He is so close to us. I continue to struggle with allowing myself to get my hopes up and I think that there is an aspect of hopeful expectation combined with a guarded heart. But today we get to simply celebrate so many answered prayers. We have a chance and God loves to work for His children.

The nurse called back and they hoped my estrogen would be above 150 and it was 75.6, so tomorrow I start estrogen pills three times a day which will HOPEFULLY last through a first trimester. (Lord, please!) (Sidenote: estrogen pills three times a day … yes, Josh deserves some prayers. Buy stock in Kleenex now if you know what’s good for you.) They would like to give the follicles one more day before triggering so TOMORROW NIGHT at 6:30 pm, I have a date with an HCG trigger shot and then Monday morning at 10:30 am we will have our IUI (inter-uterine insemination) done. Oh my word, this is happening.

I get a little emotional when I think about the timing of it all. Christmas 2012 is when we were able to celebrate with our families my first pregnancy, later miscarrying that day, and to think that this Christmas, 2 years later, I will have the hope that God will be creating new life in me again. The sentimental side knows that even though our babies are celebrating Christmas with Jesus, that perhaps He will be lovingly creating their sibling to join us next year. Cautious excitement and gentle reminders that He is constantly working on our behalf.

Send all the baby dust, prayers, positive vibes and fertile juices my way. I wholeheartedly believe He is in this …. YAY!

(Oh my, this post is painfully scattered but I just don’t have the brain capacity to edit it. Thanks for bearing with me when some days the sentences just don’t flow and my love for GIFs are on overdrive.)

XOXO!

28 thoughts on “yay!

  1. Sean Ryther says:

    We’ve been praying for you guys through this whole process. Our heart breaks when we get some of your updates, but when I read this one this morning, I couldn’t help but get goosebumps. God is in complete control and I know you know that and believe it. We will continue to pray for you and Josh and baby ;) Merry Christmas to you guys!

    • chels819 says:

      Sean, this message meant so much to both Josh and I! Thank you (and Katie!) for your continued prayers. Man, I am thankful for friends that pray and encourage. I am so appreciative! Happy New Year! I hope you are all enjoying your oversea adventures! Hugs to you all!

  2. lollygirl3 says:

    Big prayers for you and genuine love for your GIFs and silly humor. I’m a writer and an English teacher, and the “scattered” structure just speaks to your excitement and your hesitancy to put in full hope. It’s beautiful writing because it reflects honestly the state of your heart – back and forth – trust and fearing, trusting and fearing. “Lord, I believe! Help my unbelief.” It’s a beautiful place to be, a beautiful prayer. The good news is that even though hope in circumstances is never known, hope in the LORD as one who is always faithful and mighty, hope in Christ as an intercessor who weeps for your pain and gives himself up for you, and hope in the Holy Spirit who abides with you always and is able to wash over you with peace beyond all understanding is never misplaced. That hope is SURE. And, when the timing is right, God redeems manifold, multiplied, and above and beyond what we ever dared hope or dream. For what is meant for harm is worked for good. [Genesis 50:20]. Always.

    Love to you, and dances like Sue Sylvester and a minion, combined. Picture that!

    – Lauren

    • chels819 says:

      Lauren, what a beautiful compliment that was to read! Thank you so much for your compliments, as well as your sisterly encouragement that God is faithful and mighty. Once I get a new ink cartridge, I am printing out your comment because it encouraged me so and also reminded me so much of His goodness. Thank you for this and I am so sorry for my delayed response! XO!

  3. Caroline says:

    Just great news! Praying for sure! Love the Jesus Calling quote. I think we all need to hear that every once and a while. Yeah have fun with the estrogen pills! It will be worth it!

  4. Kendra says:

    Oh I love good news like this!! So happy for you and I’ll be praying that all continues to look up! Don’t be afraid to get excited. You know who’s in control and He just wants you to trust Him! :)

    • chels819 says:

      Your comment hit me like a wave when I read it (even though my response is super delayed). “Don’t be afraid to get excited. You know who’s in control and He just wants you to trust Him.’ EXACTLY what I needed to hear (and again, need to hear today.) Thank you for speaking His words to me! XO!

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