Repeat after me – 28 days till spring. 28 days till spring. 28 days till spring. We can do this.
Favorite Dinner Date: Josh and I had the BEST dinner date to celebrate Valentine’s Day. The food was absolutely amazing (Acqua never fails to disappoint!) and it felt so good to sit for a few hours and talk and laugh and catch up. I am so grateful for this man. (Plus the basil mojito’s there are on point. Like, #winning.)
Favorite Flowers: Trader Joe’s had these gorgeous purple wax flowers on sale at $2.99 a bunch this week. Nothing says SPRING COME SOON like a little bit of flowery life in the house. I have a feeling they will last a while too.
Favorite Quote: “I want to cultivate a deep sense of gratitude, of groundedness, of enough, even when I am longing for something more. The longing and gratitude, both. I’m practicing believing that God knows more than I know, that He sees what I can’t, that He’s weaving a future I can’t even imagine from where I sit this morning.” –shauna niequist-
Remember how my last cycle got cancelled due to overstimulating? Well, I should have started a new cycle weeks ago. And I didn’t. No, I can assure you, I am not pregnant. My body just decided to revolt, shake things up a bit, make me wait a little longer and storm the castle of confusion.
We waited and waited. Did some checking, took a monstrous PIO injection used to induce a cycle and then waited some more. Well, even the inducing didn’t work. (And let me tell you, it makes you feel awesome. Um, not.) So on Monday I zipped over to my clinic for some bloodwork and another ultrasound, all showing that my body is truly just trying to be rebellious without a real cause. Yes, a few smaller cysts here and there, but nothing too exciting or unusual for me. So with that news, the doctors plan is just to start another Letrozole (Femara)/IUI cycle and see what happens. They cut my meds down by half, started the letrozole on Monday and finishing tonight, and I will go in next Tuesday to see what’s going on.
Okay, all of this ties back in to the quote, I promise.
So after my early morning, 7-something appointment, I stopped over by Starbucks to make my grocery list and menu for the week. Well, my ‘quick list-making stop’ evolved into a quiet and relaxing morning, watching the snow fall down around me, making me feel like I was in a snow globe, while ingesting the beautiful words above.
Coming out of the appointment I felt pretty apathetic but Shauna’s quote reminded me a few things – one, that I am to be fully and completely grounded in Him, grateful for life even when I am longing for more. It reminded me that God IS weaving a future, even when I can’t see the other side. It reminded me that it’s okay if we can’t see the other side from where we sit right now. (In fact, if we could see the other side, it would omit the need for faith.) It reminded me that above all, regardless of what is going on in my life, that I want to develop into a person of deep gratitude and surrender to the One who holds my future in His hands. And in order to develop into that type of person, I have to focus more on trusting Him then I do on what I am longing for.
I am so thankful this quote lined up with the messy unknowns of another cycle, helping to re-root myself in Him. Let’s do this.
Favorite Date: I got to have an auntie/niece date with my oldest niece this week, and goodness, did we have fun! First of all, how do kids grow up so fast? Scarlett was chatting away and playing jokes on me and using her big, bright, beautiful imagination in ways that awed me. We stopped for lunch, visited a treasure store (aka a thrift store where she, unfortunately, chose a porcelain bell as the most prized treasure she ever did see. I have a feeling I will pay for this one day when I have children who are out with their aunt, hee hee!), and then spent time chatting over coffee at, where else, Starbucks. I love this peanut. Please, stop growing up.
Favorite Reminder: Wednesday was Ash Wednesday and I have to admit, I can fall into the routine practices that seasons like Advent and Lent can offer. In trying to be more intentional, I ordered the She Reads Truth Lent devotion book in hopes to focus more on what Lent means. I loved the introduction and how it defines lent: “Lent sets aside time for believers to focus intently on that action which is at the crux of our faith – drawing near to the cross of Christ and resting in the shadow of His sacrifice, glory, and forgiveness.”
I shared online that my prayer for myself is that I use this time of Lent to be intentional about returning to the cross, repenting and mourning the reality of my sinfulness, and remembering the precious gift Christ has given me. I pray that this season becomes more than just giving up something, I pray that we can all press pause and remember just how much we need the cross. If you are looking for a great devotional to use, follow along on shereadstruth.com or download the app. The website offers free devotionals/scripture readings daily while the app charges $2.99 for the plan for its app-functionality. It’s not too late to start.
Favorite Cali Picture: She certainly was not barking at anything right before this. In fact, she too looks confused as to who was yapping at a blowing leaf. (*eyeroll*)
And finally, congratulations to Kristin H. for winning the giveaway for the gorgeous Wishbone + Gem necklace! We are necklace twins, so fun! Thanks again to Crystal for sharing your talents with my readers!
Until next week – xo!
16 thoughts on “friday favorites – february 20.”
I hope this next cycle is successful for you! Or that you’re at least able to do it! I’ll be praying all goes well for you in the next few weeks.
Thank you Ashley! We hope so too!!! I think this might be our last IUI cycle before moving on to one last IVF cycle. Praying that isn’t needed! Thanks for your prayers and love! xoxox! Back at ya!
Love the funnies today girl!
Thanks! :) I still am constantly amused by these silly memes! :) XO!
Girl!! Love that quote – so good to cultivate a heart of gratitude! I just love that!!! Trusting God’s perfecting timing even though I DO NOT understand ;) So glad you had a niece date – those truly are the best! Oh, I love TJ’s flowers :) I don’t understand the TJ hype, but I do love the flowers :)
Hi friend! Thanks for always being so faithful in checking in on these posts. You are such a blessing! The flowers at TJ’s are great and cheap! A win! xox!
Well then I will pray extra hard, Chelsea! xoxo
thank you so much!!!!! xoxo!
Exciting month ahead!!! What do you like better femara or clomid? I did my first month with medicine last month and I was given clomid, but had headaches from it. Just wondering if you liked other drugs better?
Hi Laura! I found Femara to be a lot easier all around than Clomid. Clomid didn’t work for me personally but I know others that it has! I found Clomid to give me thin lining, awful headaches and extreme hotflashes. Femara is kinder to me. I hope that you have a success cycle SOON! xox!
It sounds like a wonderful week! I’m hoping next week (and your next cycle) are both happy!!
Thanks you so much! It was a really wonderful week — here’s to what’s ahead! :) Have a great weekend! <3
If we could see the other side, it would omit the need for faith. ~ That is a reminder that I needed. I’m always trying to analyze God’s plan and figure out what He wants us to do next, when is He going to bless us with a baby, what is He waiting on. But if I knew his plan, there would be no need for faith. So thank you for writing that!
Also, I just recently discovered She Reads Truth right before Ash Wed, and I love it!! It’s so easy since they just send an email every morning, and it’s free! It’s a great ministry.
I am touched to know that that was the reminder that God wanted you to have. I am praying for you as we all work to strengthen that faith in Him and His plan! And YES! The emails are so nice aren’t they!? I forgot to mention that! Thank you for adding it! :) Have a great day!
I am a relatively new reader to your blog and I love it!
Today I particularly wanted to thank you for highlight She Reads Truth in this post. I downloaded the app and it really helps set the tone for my day. When I am getting anxious about our upcoming IVF cycle or processing grief from our miscarriage this past fall, I find myself returning to the words throughout the day. I have been sharing it with some of my local IF friends too!
Thank you for sharing but above all, good luck this cycle! I really hope this month is your month!
Loved it! The funnies get me every time! :) It’s definitely better to smile than to frown! :)