friday favorites – march 6.

Happy Friday! First of all, I am so excited about all the participants sending over their information for the Lucky Sock Exchange! There have already been a few hundred women who have signed up and if you haven’t sent over your email yet, don’t delay! The deadline to get in is March 11th.

Oh my word. I am wiped. This round of 2WW meds have kicked my butt. I have so many things I need to care about and can’t muster up a single ounce of energy to do anything. I’m currently on estrogen pills three times a day. Three times a day I swallow the infertile’s little blue pill and embrace all of the side effects that come with it. Mild nausea, bloating like you wouldn’t believe, boobs that have blown up like Heidi Montag’s. If I am inside my house (or my car), you can be assured that my bra is off. Then I throw in some progesterone, vaginal suppositories, and thanks to insurance being un-supportive of people (me) who can’t have babies, shove a $12 pill into me via a cheap plastic dispenser three times a day. As if that wasn’t enough, I also am getting nightly progesterone in oil (PIO) injections into the back of my hip/butt. I walk like I have pulled a muscle but it’s because I ache from the injection sites. This cycle, more than others, I have experienced extreme dizziness when standing and have learned this is a progesterone side effect. Oh what fun. And the tiredness, don’t even get me started. I feel like I am operating like a zombie. Natural hormones are tough to deal with, but synthetic hormones add a whole other level of struggles. Yozzers.

But you know what? I try to welcome it all. Because one day, SOME DAY, this will all be worth it. I know not everyone has the chance to try to start a family and so, because of that, I grimace and ice up my butt one more night, I swallow one more pill, and I pray to God that this will end sooner than later.

Do I sound like I am complaining? I am sorry, I am trying not to. My brain and body are just so tired, my fingers verbally vomiting what it’s been like to be me the last week/several years. I am writing this down because I want to remember it. I want to remember this. As hard as it is, there is beauty in the process and one day, my child(ren) will know exactly how much their mama wanted them.) Don’t get all excited by my side effects thinking THAT MUST MEAN YOU ARE PREGNANT! Nah, it really is just the side effects of my meds. So, if you are looking for me, I will be laying on my kitchen floor trying to muster up the energy to sit up and do the dishes. (And note, I am not looking for sympathy. I will be completely fine! I just can’t wait to one day feel all of these side effects because there is a baby in my tummy, not simply because I am trying to get a baby in my tummy.)

Thanks for engaging in my online therapy session. Now, without further ado, let’s dive right into Friday Favorites!

Favorite Replacement: I FINALLY got a new iPhone case (to replace a cheap and peeling one I bought a while ago), and love it! It’s nice having a hard case, a first for me as I have always had that flexible kind, plus the colors make me happy. Thanks Sister for helping me pick it out and encouraging me to finally get to the store to get one!

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Favorite Pin: I love these kinds of drapey sweaters and am adoring the colors in this one. Can you tell I am ready for spring? Or maybe I am just envious of skin that isn’t translucent like mine. *gulp*

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Favorite Family Show Down: We had a blast on Sunday playing cards with my family. We call it “poker” but all that means is we have a deck of cards and a pile of change, playing our own modifications of the game. I learned that I must be storing up all my luck for this IUI cycle but regardless, enjoyed sharing in a Sunday afternoon filled with laughs and shuffling.

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Cali loves her auntie!

Cali loves her auntie!

"whats going on outside guys?"

“whats going on outside guys?”

Favorite Kitchen Product: This indoor grill is just the best. If you live in a state that has 6 months of winter like I do, this is a lifesaver. Who wants to grill outside in the cold when you can turn your stove into a grill? I use my grill pan all the time and it’s worth the investment! (Or add it to your birthday or Christmas list like I did!) I have had mine for about 7 years and it’s still going strong. (There’s a flat side and a griddle side. It’s perfect for everything!)

(image found on Crate and Barrel’s website)

(image found on Crate and Barrel’s website)

Favorite Bit of Drama: Oh the Women Tell All episode of the Bachelor. My head could barely handle the confrontation, TEARS, drama and awkward tension. Going into the finale, I am Team Whitney (for Chris). I love Becca and what she stands for, I really think she is a quality gal, but for Chris, I think Whitney will be a better long term match. That being said, who knows!!! Can’t wait for 3 hours of the most dramatic finale ever. (PS – Chris Harrison wrote a book? Was anyone else like this when he announced that?)

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Favorite Date: We had a blast on Saturday night on a triple date with some of our close friends. Chili’s (hello chips and salsa! Swoon.) + bowling (this post-iui gal sat out on the actual bowling) made for a hilarious, laugh-filled evening. I am so thankful for friendships like this.

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Favorite Make-over: Cali got her spring hair cut! She’s feeling so fly.

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Favorite Funnies: 

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There you have it! And can I note, since I originally started writing this post, I ran across this verse in Luke 9 (MSG): “Don’t run from suffering; embrace it. Follow me and I’ll show you how.” Bah. Leave it to God to remind me that suffering is okay and that I need to take my eyes off of the suffering itself and turn them to Him. Well there you have it folks, He is constantly speaking to us all in all our situations, we just have to make ourselves available to listen.

Until next time! XO!

25 thoughts on “friday favorites – march 6.

  1. ourgreatestdesire says:

    I LOVE that you love this season of the Bachelor as much as I do. I just finally got to watch the “Tell all” episode last night. Ashley I’s facial expressions were priceless, I’m still not buying Kelsey’s story about not faking that panic attack and I’m totally Team Whitney. Do you think it has anything to do with the fact that she’s a fertility nurse? :) Praying that your synthetic hormone symptoms turn into pregnancy symptoms!!!

    • chels819 says:

      Oh Kelsey is just a hot mess! Yikes! And Ashley’s facial expressions cracked me up. I could have done a Friday Favorites with just them. Hehe! I do love Whitney’s profession too. :) Thanks for those prayers, thinking about you too as I know all these weeks post-miscarriage are just heartbreaking. Sending you so much love friend.

  2. Caroline says:

    Such a fun week, minus all the side effects from the pills :( Friend, I am so sorry, but yes it will ALL be worth it – Some day soon! Praying for your 2ww!!!! I too love that cardigan! So cute! And, I totally need a phone case – but I like mine to be basically like bubble wrap because I’m notorious for dropping and cracking screens ;) Yours is super cute though! Happy Friday friend!

    • chels819 says:

      Thanks for the encouragement Caroline! Isn’t it cute!? By the time I see anything on Pinterest it’s already long since sold out. And the thing I love about this case it that it’s a soft flexible case and then the top is an additional hard case! It’s not quite as big as an otterbox but it feels super secure too! I have had one to many shattered phone screens too, isn’t it the worst?! Have a great weekend!

  3. damelapin says:

    Good luck for the side effect! I had the same if it can “cheer you up”, minus the injections. At least WHEN and not if, it WILL work, you’ll be like “nausea? Yeah, I know” ;)

  4. Holly says:

    Thanks for “keeping it real” about fertility drugs and their side effects. So many people sugar-coat it and sometimes, I just need to know that other people feel like a hot mess on them too (not that I wish the nastiness on anyone else….ugh)!! I hope the side effects pass and great news is just around the corner for you! Oh and I am totally Team Whitney….

    Sending prayers your way! =)

    • chels819 says:

      I was so blessed by the grace in your reply. Thank you for feeling like you’re coming unraveled on meds too. It’s rough and complaining isn’t fun, but it’s real and it can be really hard some days! Thanks for the encouragement, sending prayers your way and rooting for Whitney with you!!

  5. Jojo says:

    Ugh! Med side effects are the worst!! Specially when it causes you to feel exhausted. Isn’t bowling fun when you aren’t bowling lol I sat out as well recently and it was hilarious seeing how mad they would get or excited. Love that cardigan!

  6. mrsbrooks09 says:

    I’ve got to admit I haven’t watched the Bachelor or Bachelorette in years and I have no idea who anyone is, but I’ve heard more about this season than any other in the past… It must be a good one! Hoping that all these hormones lead to another big surge of natural hormones cause there’s a sweet babe in that belly. Praying for this 2ww!! SO MUCH! XOXO

  7. Amy says:

    Heidi Montag boobs. I love your sense of humor and that you always retain in no matter what you have going on. Also, my exact face as Chris Harrison plugged his…romance novel…Also, the throat punch kid, I make that face about 4 times a day substitute teaching.

  8. Amanda Koch says:

    OMG! I can totally relate to the life of a person dealing with Progesterone!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The side effects and the insurance being a pain, all of it! I feel your pain literally!!!!

    Hang in there!!!! J xoxoxo

  9. Tales of a Twin Mombie says:

    Ha! That episode was classic. Kelsey tried so hard to get people to sympathize with her and you could see she was really trying to get herself to cry..it was a disaster! Brit was also a hot mess!! So many emotions! I’m happy with who Chris ended up with!

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