break.

Just popping in to share that I am going to take a short break from the blogging world but will be back in April assuming I am feeling better. I’m struggling more than I thought I would and need to take some time for self-care, to clear my head and to work on taking deep breaths.

My hCg results came back negative today, which is a huge thing to celebrate. I have begun the process of physically miscarrying as well which is a bittersweet blessing.

Please keep me in your prayers as I navigate the emotions, anxiety and restlessness that has hit me, as well as praying for wisdom on what’s next. I will be taking a month off from cycling (at least) and will start a Factor V safe birth control pill in the next few days, so let’s hope that goes well. To be honest, I am feeling a little lost and trying to find the light at the end of the tunnel. Is there one?

Psalm 126:5 “Those who sow tears will reap with songs of joy.”

Much love,

Chelsea

32 thoughts on “break.

  1. Christina says:

    I totally understand. Take time to heal and rest. We look forward to hearing from you soon! In the meantime, you will continue to be in my prayers.

  2. Amanda says:

    Chelsea – I am so sorry for the hurt and pain you are experiencing. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. I wish you all the best!

  3. Miranda Jean-Louis says:

    Thinking of you and your husband as you both go through this tough time. will be keeping you both in prayer. Just recently found your blog and have been enjoying it ever since. Take as much time as you need to grieve and heal. Take good care of yourself.

  4. Erica says:

    My heart breaks for you. Give yourself all the time you need. Grief is like an ocean, sometimes it’s calm and sometimes it’s a raging storm. I’ve been there, still am there unfortunately. Hugs.

  5. ecutri says:

    I took a break for 6 months when I was at my darkest. This crazy ride is a lot to handle and doing whatever you need to do to keep your sanity intact (or as much in tact as possible) is important. Breathe, meditate, take some time to focus on yourself, and you’ll know when you are ready. I am so glad you didn’t have to go through hcg hell…it just makes everything so much worse. Good luck and I hope that you find a way to get yourself together and better than ever <3

  6. Cheryl says:

    Bless your dear heart. Your loss and heartache are so hard to bear. Only Jesus can really comprehend your pain. I know it seems that there is no light ahead, but He is with you, even when you can’t feel that reality. May you feel His love in a thousand ways as you walk this difficult path. I am praying for you and your husband. Much love to you both.

  7. vivagood says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss. Take some time for yourself, to heal, to mourn, to find that hope and joy again. God has you wrapped up in His arms and I pray that you feel that today and every day…that He fills your day and your path with a million reminders of how He absolutely loves you and remembers you. Amen.

  8. Amie says:

    A social media break always did me to much good! I am so very sorry for the place you are in right now. Please know you are in my prayers :)

  9. Holly says:

    As a believer, I understand the darkness that can come with infertility. It’s ugly. It’s scary. It stretches your faith to the max. After 2 miscarriages and the stillborn twins, I hit rock bottom. I never denied his goodness but that was because my heart knew that somehow He was still good even though it felt cruel. A greif observed by CS Lewis really helped me learn how to question God, express emotions, and still settle that HE is good. I know you already know this and have remained so strong. Keep fighting Mama. He works in the redemption department. This is not the end of your story. <3

  10. Abby says:

    Sending so much love your way. Take the time you need to focus on you. And remember that we are all here cheering for you!

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