trusting, praying + puzzling.

Update: All of the pieces have been claimed! How amazing is God!? We are so incredibly grateful and humbled by all those who have joined us in this puzzle and will certainly share pictures as it is finished being assembled and marked on. We are watching Him put together a puzzle far bigger than we could ever ask for or imagine! Thank you all for your sacrifices, thoughts, prayers and love. We are overwhelmingly grateful.

Ah, the long awaited update. Friends, it goes without saying that our road to starting a family hasn’t been easy, yet it’s one we have been called to fight for. Fight for the promises God has written, fight for the desires He has put on our hearts, fight to stay obedient to Him throughout it all. The fight has led us through 7+ years of infertility, lots of medication and treatments, surgeries and tears. And through it all, the miscarriages, the tears, the fears, and the questions, still He whispered Hang onto Me. Don’t let go of Hope. I have not left you. Keep your eyes towards heaven and wait for Me.

The last year called us to do simply that, wait on Him. Wait for His timing, His direction, His guidance. Truthfully, we kept crying out that if starting an earthly family would not come to pass, that He would graciously change the desires of our hearts and lead us towards another road.

And yet, still He whispers, Wait on Me. I have something in store.

I shared with you all that He began stirring in our hearts at the beginning of this year, pointing us towards a new clinic, Colorado Center for Reproductive Medicine – Minneapolis. (You can read more about that here.) Oh friends, it’s hard to put into words how much He showed up that day. Your prayers circled us in the days preceding, melting away anxious thoughts and ushered us into the appointment with complete peace, articulation and a God-given sense of calm.

That appointment went so well! We felt completely listened to and validated, the seasoning of cycles past able to lace the conversation with wisdom that I can only say was God-led. And so, after much continued prayer, Josh and I are excited to share that we are stepping into the waters of in vitro fertilization (IVF) one final time with this clinic and doctor!!

The timing and excitement stirring in our hearts isn’t a coincidence! The changes we are making to our cycle protocol are significant and we feel a lot of peace and confidence regarding the path that lies ahead for us. Our prayer is simply that He would use us and our story for His kingdom, regardless of the results. (If there is anything we have learned along the way, it’s that He is writing our story here and we are simply along for the ride!)

As we have been praying, we have felt a strong call to invite others in to help us bring our baby home in a tangible way. How so? We have designed this beautiful 1,000 piece puzzle and are humbly asking you to claim a piece. What does this mean!?

Our goal is to put together this puzzle, piece by piece, with the names of those who are committing to pray and support us as we jump into this again. After the puzzle is completed, we will frame it between two pieces of glass and hang it in our child’s room as a wonderful keepsake, visually representing the team of cheerleaders behind us. (Yes, we are claiming there will be a child as a result!)

We will be offering 2 types of puzzle pieces – prayer pieces and sponsored prayer pieces. Many of you have asked in the past if you can donate financially to our cycles, knowing that the cost of uncovered IVF is expensive. We continue to feel, as we always have, that the power of prayer is much stronger than the power of the dollar, however, this cycle, unlike cycles past, we feel led to open up the door to vulnerably allow people to support our journey in this way should they so choose. We don’t want this to be a big commitment, so the cost of the sponsored puzzle piece is simply $5. We do NOT want a dollar amount to stand in the way of you being part of our puzzle. If you cannot or simply don’t want to chip in $5, please, do not feel any obligation. Josh and I always try to be intentional stewards* of the money God has given us to manage and all puzzle donations will be specifically used to fund this cycle. We want to stress though that this is not about the money but about the prayer involved.    

Simply put, this puzzle is our way (and God’s way!) of organizing a team of prayer partners behind us and giving your name a tangible piece to our puzzle. We hope to be able to visually see the names of the army behind us!  If you have sent over any prayers, thoughts, positive vibes and support, in the past or currently, we sincerely thank you and hope you join us for this next adventure.

Here’s how it works:

  • If you want a piece of the puzzle, it’s all yours! We simply ask in return that you offer up a small prayer** for us over the next few months. If you have stumbled across this blog and find yourself still reading, YES! Please, we covet your prayers too! No prayer is too big or small! We mean it! (The thought of complete strangers being part of this story gives me goosebumps!)

To have your name put on the back of one of these puzzle pieces, simply click here and submit your first name (last name not required but welcomed!) or your family name. **LINK IS CLOSED AS THE PUZZLE IS FULL**That’s it! Josh and I will rejoice as we write your name into our story! Go do it right now before you forget!

  • If you want to purchase a puzzle piece and support us in this way, first of all, truly, thank you. We know $5 is a cup of fancy coffee, a car wash or lunch out. We don’t take your sacrifice lightly.

You can sponsor as many pieces as you would like! ($5 = 1 piece, $10 = 2 pieces, $20 = 4 pieces, etc…) With each additional piece you add, feel free to add a message to your portion of the puzzle scaled to size! We would love words from you etched into the puzzle!!! (This is optional.)

If you choose to donate, you can do so in one of these three ways:

  • 1 – Click on the Donate button below and pay securely through PayPal. Simply add the amount of pieces you are purchasing (Feel no need to purchase more than 1! Honestly, your $5 gift is so meaningful! The thought really does count.) You will see a spot available to “add special instructions to the recipient” during “checkout” where you can add your puzzle message. If you include anything else in that message, please make sure to note what is a personal message and what you’d like written on the puzzle.

**DONATIONS CLOSED AS THE PUZZLE IS FULL**

  • 2 – Write a check or donate cash and hand deliver to Josh and/or Chelsea.
  • 3 – Mail a check to us (email us at trialsbringjoy @ gmail.com for a mailing address).

Please don’t let the hesitation of not having talked to us in a while, not knowing us at all, or having been a quiet observer stop you from being a part of this road with us. We are so hopeful that God has great things ahead for our family!

We humbly thank you so much for caring about us so deeply. It’s only in Him and through Him!

Love,

Josh, Chelsea and of course, Cali

“I also tell you this: If two of you agree here on earth concerning anything you ask, my Father in heaven will do it for you. For were two or three gather together as my followers, I am there among them.”  Matthew 18:19-20 (NLT)

*I feel it important to note that prior to knowing that we would be pursuing these costly medical treatments, Josh and I planned a small, half-week vacation for early May. Had we known we would be undertaking this IVF cycle and extensive testing, we would not have financially committed to that. However, His view is always bigger than ours and we are grateful now to have this short get-away to look forward to in between our egg retrieval and embryo transfer. We do not in any way want to make you uncomfortable if you choose to purchase a piece and leave you feeling that we were not clear about this pre-paid trip.

**Not a pray-er? We invite you to offer up simple words such as “Dear God, thank you for the chance to pray for Josh and Chelsea. We know that You and only You are the one who makes and sustains life. I pray right now for Josh and Chelsea and the medical journey they are about to step into. I simply ask that they would be blessed with a baby for their family! Amen”

PS – I know that many of you are interested in all of the fun details of IVF cycles! The blood tests! The medication protocol! The timeline and nitty gritty details about how this cycle will differ from others. We wouldn’t let you down! All of these details will be shared in the coming month as we proceed. I will share now that as I write this, I am already on medication to begin this final cycle! Our intentions are to enter into the egg stimulation phase at the end of March with a tentative and God-willing egg retrieval surgery early April. YAY!

photography: Gina Ziedler

Photo by: Gina Zeidler Photography

41 thoughts on “trusting, praying + puzzling.”

    • chels819 says:
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      Hi Lisa! Yes, we used Dr. C at CRM in the past! This time we are going to CCRM in Edina, but also have great things to say about CRM. :) Thank you for those prayers, they mean so much!!!

  2. Krista says:
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    There is a great CCRM support group on FB if you are interested! Best of luck! I know all too well how difficult this journey is. Praying.

    • chels819 says:
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      Ohhhh that is so good to know! I will need to search and find that! Or if you have the ability to add me, email me at trialsbringjoy @ gmail (dot) com and let’s connect! Thank you Krista!

  3. Holly Baudier says:
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    Stumbled upon your blog. Someone (maybe your sister posted it on fb) I’m struggling with infertility also but trusting God. I am praying for you!!

    • chels819 says:
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      I am so sorry to hear that you are struggling with infertility too Holly. Will take some time to pray for you right now! I am glad we connected … hugs and thank you for your prayers!

    • chels819 says:
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      Thank you so much Caroline! We are so thankful! I can’t wait to see YOU become a mom someday! Still claiming that for you and praying regularly! Thanks for the offer for the fundraiser too…I will keep you posted! Love your kind and generous heart! XO!

  5. Paigeed says:
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    I just want you all to know that I stumbled upon your blog a week or 2 ago and began following you. I will be praying for you all in the upcoming months. Here’s a passage that always makes me feel strong, I hope it will for you as well.
    “She is clothed in strength and dignity, she laughs without fear of the future.” -Proverbs 31:25

    • chels819 says:
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      Ah, I love that He brought you to us in a time we need so much prayer! What a gift it was to read your comment! Thank you so much! Love that verse, posting it on my fridge as a reminder. :) xo!

  9. Andrea says:
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    Praying for you. My husband and I struggled with infertility with our first. We were blessed our sweet Stella through IVF. It is certainly an emotional journey that I can’t imagine facing without God. I will never forget the journey and all the feelings that came along with it. It is amazing how many amazing couples who I have bonded with because of infertility. God as an amazing way of connecting people. Hugs and prayers to you!

    • chels819 says:
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      I echo your words! I can’t imagine going through this emotional and difficult journey without Him. Thank you for your prayers and for connecting with me! I am so thankful He is in control of it all. Thanks for those prayers and congratulations on beating infertility!!!

  14. Nicola says:
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    Thinking of you both and wishing you all the best on your journey.
    I have 8 year old twins from IVF and feel very lucky to have them. It is a rollercoaster and you can go from highs to lows and everything in between in a day.
    I can feel your calm and peaceful approach coming through in yoir words. Everything is for a reason.

    • chels819 says:
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      Thanks so much Nicola! We love hearing success stories like yours … thank you for sharing! And isn’t that the truth!? The rollercoasters are insane. Thank you for your thoughts and encouragement!!

  18. Amy says:
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    My eyes are tear filled. I have been praying for you both for a long time, and your story has been such a comfort for me during our own struggles. I will praying so hard for you guys during this.

  19. TheWordofANerd says:
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    Excited for your journey again. It’s hard to believe how much you all have gone through but I know the Lords timing is impeccable and he will see you through this. I’m excited to be a part of your journey we are praying for you!!

    • chels819 says:
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      Charity, we are so grateful for you and all of your prayers. We truly believe He has good things in store and are so thankful sisters in Christ like you to support and encourage along the way! Love you!

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